i know i can do it:)

Yeah approximately im already here


Here On the point of  my life that I DONT NEED TO SMILE if IM sad,I dont need to pretend that im okey even Im not
i Know there's a lot of changes in life
"CHANGES"who made me better person.
NOW- i can walk al-by myself
i can be with anybody who i want to be with
ive already improved my "social life".
IVE been participating in some of our activities in school
IVe also tried to "DANCE" in front of the crowd
Rapping and beat boxing in from of the class
acting like a MESS


but in some point of my life 
i miss being the
"old me"


the Grace who only knows to "banat"some cheezy quotations


the GRACE who walk out and turnED to "makahiya"whenever she saw "LUCKYCHARM"


the GRACE who put tissue  on her "WET UNDER-ARM"in front of the crowd


the GRACE who doesnt care if she doesn's have assignment


the IMPECTUS GRACE everytime  she mingle with her COMRADE(friends)


the TRUCULENT grace everytime she was hurt


"know everytime i look at the mirror,i cant see this grace"
cause i know  the old GRACE is full of kindness but being abused" "lovable but HURT"
i dont want to FEEL  these again.






Ive change cause you let me to CHANGE
Ive forgotten cause you dont do things to  BE remember

(BTW i wanna share it with you guys)HOPE you like it:)
it also a part of my unfinished novel.
HARSH,(i dont have plans to finish it)haha
well
check it out;)

Stare at the mirror, like how/

Like wow, why now/

When everything is falling to place, it all falls down/

This here’s for every person, anyone who be hurting/

All the drama, the confusion and everything that’s uncertain/

May it be caused by love or caused by hate/

Or probably caused by doubt and lack of faith/

Be strong keep your head up and wipe them tears/

You’re alone you better step up and face your fears/

Cause this is life and you gotta face reality/

I know it bites, face the music cause there is melody/

There’s a reason for every situation you get into/

It’s true, and in every situation you could get through/

Just make sure you wont regret the decision you make/

Cause

Stare at the mirror, like how/

Like wow, why now/

When everything is falling to place, it all falls down/

This here’s for every person, anyone who be hurting/

All the drama, the confusion and everything that’s uncertain/

May it be caused by love or caused by hate/

Or probably caused by doubt and lack of faith/

Be strong keep your head up and wipe them tears/

You’re alone you better step up and face your fears/

Cause this is life and you gotta face reality/

I know it bites, face the music cause there is melody/

There’s a reason for every situation you get into/

It’s true, and in every situation you could get through/

Just make sure you wont regret the decision you make/

Cause possibilities are there is this heart you make or break/

Don’t make mistakes with the path that you take/

I know how hard it is I’ve been in your place/

Been in that phase, don’t know the outcome cause I aint there yet/

But I’m right here for you, heart and mind please bear that/

I aint leaving you alone, no matter what/

Believe in me when I say no matter what/

Honesty is what I write down/

Truth in me couldn’t pipe down/

Wrote this to make me feel better, but hey it makes me frown/

Puts me down, just like how you did/

My heart is unbreakable, it just got ripped/

It’s up to you if you wanna fix or stitch it up/

Cause I tear my heart open, can’t sow myself shut…

 possibilities are there is this heart you make or break/

Don’t make mistakes with the path that you take/

I know how hard it is I’ve been in your place/

Been in that phase, don’t know the outcome cause I aint there yet/

But I’m right here for you, heart and mind please bear that/

I aint leaving you alone, no matter what/

Believe in me when I say no matter what/

Honesty is what I write down/

Truth in me couldn’t pipe down/

Wrote this to make me feel better, but hey it makes me frown/

Puts me down, just like how you did/

My heart is unbreakable, it just got ripped/

It’s up to you if you wanna fix or stitch it up/

Cause I tear my heart open, can’t sow myself shut…

scared for the midterm

sa totoo lang easy lang naman,
,ang subject ko pero ang MATH.shit talaga...
Ewan ko ba ,bakit kahit anong gawin kong effort  sa math di pa rin ako satisfied sa grades ko  unlike kapag english,filipino,or kahit na ano pa yan,kahit sauluhin,explanation .CARRY KO IH.
.pero ang math "damn it"
Tulad nung Prelim Nagaral ako sa algebra pero i really hate my score after that.Akala ko talaga i will get higher as i expected pero too bad it was not
.I HATE it.Nagbigay ako ng effort nagpaturo pa ko sa frend ko pero its not enough kung san pa ko di nag aral dun pa ko nakataas
,Ewan ko ba?????????????????????????
 at eto
next week "MIDTERM" natatakot na naman ako sa lecheng math na yan ,
hindi lang kase 1 ang math ko "TATLO"take note "THREE"TRES,TATLO....
YUNG trigo at mathlpus keri pa talaga ihh..PERO ANG LINTEK NA ALGEBRA NA yan..Ewan ko..
I should stop this
magagawa pa ko ng "ENGDRA "ihhh.."ENGINEERING DRAWING"
(feeling ko masasayang lang yung isang set ng  "staedler"na binili ko,kase kumukalat kapag sinusulat buti nalang may gelpen ako;)
off to study na
bye guyss;)

Party

WITH KENNETH SYA ANG PHOTOGRAPHER  KO

CLASSMATE'S

WITH THE 5th year students of the computer engineering

emo ako

"first acquaintance Party"

College na talaga ako

o diba

Ang dami ko ng alam

hahahahaha

EXTENSION

YEAH .my hair extension..
it looks like real but definitely itS not.
my hair is short,,
ive never tried to have a long hair,i dunno why?but i want long hair,Maybe because sometimes.I'M INSANE TO CUT IT.
I already try a curly hair,black rebounded hair ,,,short,,,
i guest my next hair style is "SEMI -KALBO"
haha..
nothing important to share
i want a long hair..:((

july:)

yeah first week ng July

eto yung mga nagyari

;^pumunta ako ng LIPA para bumili ng engineering drwang...ang mahal ha

pero xempre gala na rin with my best frend ERIKA OUTSU..

:^Na  nominate ako na AUDITOR ng organization "ACES"

unexpected tlga...WALA sa plano ko yun.hahhaaha

>^ACES BONDING..grabi parang isang pamilya..

tulungan,,,tawanan at damayan..mukang magigigng masaya ang 5 years ko ahhh...

'^ahhmp.....nakatabi ko  si "";)""di ko sya crush attracted lang ako sa kanya..para tuloy gusto ko magbago habang nandito pa xa..ahhhmp....happy to feel her skin..hahha...nangungulit pa sya....ahhhoo;)

UYEEAAAHHH.......

;^PRELIM na nextweek..

kaya nilulubos lubos ko na ang pag ffb,,

atblogger KASE "IIWASAN KO TO NEXTWEEK"

promise..

ayoko mag ka 3 no...

CPE pa nmn course ko

ILL MAKE IT HAPPEN NA BABAMAWI AKO SA MATH

.wait lang

kaya kelangan ko na magaral at review.

paano till my next entry..

antok na ihh..

;)iloveblog;)

going back to my ALMA MATER

yeahh its a Wednesday morning..yesterday
i went to my school to get an "org shirt"
to pass my medical certificate
ahmmp......it so tagal....but after 24 yearssss
i made it,,,haaha
with the help of my classmates hindi ko na kinelangang pumila ng milya milya...
;)
hmmm....nagkarron ng UNEXPECTED MEET UP WITH MY HIGHSCHOOL BARKADA'S
DAHIL SA "GM"
kaya importante ang GM NO ;p

 eto tuloy yung nangyare
nabalikan ng wala sa oras lahat ng highschool memories namin...
pati yung mga old teachers namin nakiusisa sa mga bago naming buhay...
nakaka tuwa lang kase after all ,may pakielam pa rin sila sayo..kahit minsan naging sakit ka ng ulo nila.

my fake smile....or should i say  a 50% smile of HAPPINESS

SI CESSITA MANALOTO..HEHEHEHEE.."BUDS KO YAN"

WELL ETO KAMI DATI..pero as you can see tatlo nalang kami sapicture sa taas.
.kase
halos lahat yung iba nasa Manila na or Batangas
kase nagkahiwahiwalay kami ngayong college.
"HINDI AKO MAG EEMOTE NO  NAMISS KO LANG TALAGA YUNG MGA GAGONG  YAN"

pain

yeah nagsimula ng college life ko..masaya..new friends...new school..."NEW ALL".
13 lang kaming magkaklase sa  computer engineering;)
sino kaya ang tatagal ng 5 years...well sana walang "BIBIBTIW"..
kakayanin ko...pero tengene....2nd day paalng kakalugaw na ng utak..kamusta naman yun...algebra,,trigo ..LOL..shit talaga...
at habang binabalikan ko yung lesson na yun nung H.S ako..
hindi ko din maiwanasan na maalala lahat,,
"SOBRANG NAKAKAMISS ANG HIGHSCHOOL LIFE"
lahat lahat,,hinahanap hanap ko.
ang nakakalungkot lang,,
ako kaya naalala nila
,namimiss din kaya nila ako.
yung boses ko,yung tittig ko,yung pangungulit ko;(
well parang hindi kase lahat sila sa manila nag aral ako lang yung naiwan dito sa batangas..nakakalungkot na pagkatapos ng lahat ng saya,tawa,lungkot,,pagod luha na pinagdaanana nyo .,ehh mawawala na alng lahat.

"KAYO"
AKALA KO BA FRENDS FOREVER.
akala ko ba walang magbabago..akala ko ba
may text at chat.
nasan na KAYO NGAYON??
alam NYO bang miss KO na kAYO,,alam NYOo bang..naiinis ako kase di NYO manlang ako naalaala..
alam mo bang  naiinis ako sa sarili ko kase haggang ngayon trap pa rin ako sa nakaraan sa tapos na,,sa "kahit kelan HINDI NA MANGYAYARE">>!!!!!!!

pero ganun siguro talaga,may mga taong panadalian lang sa buhay mo,,daanaanan ka lang,,
kayangayon sisikapin ko ng kalimutan lahat...kase ako kinalimutan na ih.
ang tagal ko ng siansabi to pero hindi ko pa din magawa-gawa..

i should forget all "yesterdays" and prepare for the
 TOMORROW...

i need to go:(

 i just realized that my vacation ended .
ended in a way  like "its nothing"
"NOTHING".
all my planS are JUST BECAME PLAN.!
i hate to say this but i wasteD the chance,,the time ,,...
and for now before the new world start"(MY COLLEGE LIFE)"
 i want to have a new world..i want  to make thing different from now on.,,,i want to let GO all the things that happen.i know i  shouldnt but i should..

end of world "BUT". new world for me

 END OF THE WORLD.......

We remember as children this one time where we read the dirt sheets that the world was going to end some random night in October as a comet was going to strike. Keep in mind this was after the movie Armageddon was big and the stories were based on that. We were scared but learned to realize a lot of people say a lot of things to try to get into peoples minds. Hell we do it also

so apparently when we are all worried about Dec 12 2012 might have in store for us, we missed two important things this pass week which makes us worried even more. January 1st marked 1/1/11 which unfortunately did not have a end of the world theme to it and there was a story leaked this week that the end of the world is actually going to be this year…on May 21st to be specific. Its funny how everyone wants the world to end not realizing it means they will no longer be here, but hey whatever floats their boat, or not. There is a Christian group that believes the end will be here soon but haven’t they been saying that forever now?

The bible does have a judgment day theme to it and how people take that is where all these theories come from. A loosely based Christian group that runs their own radio station have been buying up billboards and TV ads to spread the word that May 21st is the end of the world…at least they got the day right. They are already thinking one step of ahead of their critics by letting them know that if they are still here passed this date, it just means that were bad in their life as the day of torment will be sometime in October and they were left here to suffer. This sounds way to easy to live on nice, which just makes this seem even more like a scam. I wonder if they will be serving Kool-Aid on this date. So whatever you believe, just know that we will be here still writing articles for you guys, even if we are in chains and it feels like hell! We personally do not think the world will end with undramatic events, so the major world story lines needs to build up more so that we can see a major shocker at the end of it all, you know like how the WWE does it! Iraq, North Korea, Iran, Facebook….Sure something major can happen soon.

;>they say that tonight "six pm" the world will end..

its funny how other people react.

how they mean it.

i guess they just followed what they feels. their culture and their beliefs.

but for me "god only knows".

even if there's many "SINNERS" in this world god will never make it happen.....

for me "TODAY"i will start a new life.

a new CHALENGES,TRIALS,AND OBSTACLES...

i want to continue my life without you ";)"

i know you change a lot in my life .

you made me feel the real happiness that i never feel in my entire life.

you made me discover my other abilities

you brought "SHINE"into my life

you make my life happy

and in a blink of an eye

you make it 

"MESERABLE",.,

i know i shouldn't let it happen.

but im just human...

i made mistakes

....

i want to run from you

i want to let go all the memories we had cause its "slowly"killing me...

i want to shout all my "UNSPOKEN WORDS"and set me free "FROM YOU"...

but even if you hurts me 

i understand cause you never know how i feel "HOW I REALLY FEEL"...

cuz im afraid ...

so that i keep on hiding it...

i maybe selfish cause i never let you know the reason why i NEED to go..

im doing this for you

cause i know i cant make you happy the way "SHE"made you happy.....

i want to forget you...

the heart isn’t always right.

The heart is in the center of the chest
but it beats on the left side
I guess that is the reason why…
the heart isn’t always right.
True enough, sometimes we get too overwhelmed by our emotions which by nature are hard to control.

I once had the idea that love implies giving everything up for that one person or what I would occasionally refer to as the “the ultimate sacrifice”. Being in love is being a martyr; doing what your heart tells you to do even if it defies logic. Optimism made me believe that such sacrifices would always be reciprocated by the person you gave your heart to.

In time however I have transformed- from being an idealist to a realist. From the experiences of my friends,"CUZIN CK"and those who seek consolation from me, I learned that no matter how much you give up for love, happiness is not guaranteed. To make matters worse, the people who make sacrifices end up getting the opposite of what they want which is pain…

The etymology alone of the word pain speaks so much about its nature. It came from the Latin poinE which means to punish. Pain entails emotional anguish or in simpler terms, being miserable. Does love and pain go hand in hand? Personally, I don’t think so…

Love is not about pain but happiness… an idea often overlooked by those who are blindly following their heart. We are given a mind to go along with a heart for a purpose and that is to think… to be logical. I am not saying that logic is the key to happiness for it is not. What I would want to point out is that these “tools”, our heart and mind go together.

Sacrifices are inevitable, if you don’t risk getting hurt, you would end up being alone for the rest of your life. Such has its limitations however. There is no point in going after someone who has repeatedly caused you pain in more ways than one… Learn! Don’t let your heart fool you. If that person really loves you, then why it is that he/she is out their enjoying himself and you’re stuck in your room with all your senti songs crying. Are you still not tired of staring blankly at your ceiling, thinking that someday things would be better between you and that person? Wake up! Even if you spend a hundred years with the same routine, tomorrow would still be no different. Don’t be a fool! Are you not tired of being played around? One day you’re the happiest person alive, the next thing you know you’re taken for granted. This cycle would go on and on until you decide to put an end to it. Do yourself a favor! There are a hundred million other people in this world, people who would gladly appreciate your presence in their lives. Why stick with some who does not give a damn about you? You deserve someone better!

The tighter you hold the shattered pieces glass in your hand, the more painful it becomes and the deeper your wound would be.

ester sunday:(

yeahh...its ester sunday...

i consider it as an ordinary day,

but its not.

cause 7;00am  i force myself to woke up early cause i need to help my co-councilor and other official of our place to gather some money for our barangay fiesta...WTF cause its too hot,and some of the cars we ecounter are too" kuripot"....

untlil now i cant understand why they acting like that....most of the people who has cars,,pajero,vios,pick- up or even "SPORTsCAR"are the people who doesn't give us attention....

not like all the tricicle drivers,,, motor vehicle s,jeepney drivers there willing to help even if they are not "rich"....it doesnt really matter if they  gives us coin.AS LONG AS ITS FROM THieR HEART..

NEXT..Im with my old and childhood friends or should i say my "gradeschoolbarkada's"..One of them is my first ever crush...SINCEBIRTH haha..

yeah im with him..sharing what are the course we will take up for college....

first im shy cause its been four years since we talk each other...but because of  the hot temperature of the ozone layer...we talk,chill,eat and bond...i just realized that time is not eneough to fade the memories of a good friendship...

yeahhh......

i accidentally click the color of the font color and background color...so i decided to share to you guys my favorite sing

"BLACK AND YELLOW

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UePtoxDhJSw

"MAKATANG HIBANG"

..BEFORE  i REALLY  hate rap music.those fucking shit pronunciation of silly lyrics,Those irritable beats.Those "NOISE".........but because of  someONE  everything has changed..

.My looks ,my interest ,my habit .my music and "MY STYLE'...

his name is Raymond Mikael Camino Abracosa A.K.A. ABRA.

i first saw him when i'm browsing some video's whose all of my classmates are dying for ...Actually they bacame impersonator of it...they called it "FLIPTOP".i said whats this...why they always debating like an "POET".so i decided to look for it..

then i click the battle of "dello and target"and then i whispered ahhh eto pala yun....at the middle of the third round i just accidentally clicked the new tab ..at di ko NalamaN na naclick ko...theN  when i got irritated kase nagsisismula ng magjudge yung mga judges ...i saw anygma introduced "ABRA"then i said" ABRA"????yun 

"I FALL;))))

hahahaahaaahhaa..

Young, determined, and talented, Abra is regarded as one of Philippine Hip-Hop's most promising emcees. His exceptional lyricism, extensive vocabulary, ingenious literary technique, speed and lucidity of delivery, and fiery stage presence make him a force to be reckoned with in the music industry. Clever in both Tagalog and English, this rap artist has indeed captured the attention of numerous fans and listeners.

Abra started out in a Hip-Hop group called LDP, the Lyrically Deranged Poets, releasing their independent debut album entitled The Project back in 2009, and having their first major concert at the legendary Music Museum in 2010. LDP was awarded as the Best Urban Group in both the 2010 and 2011 Urban Music Awards, and also received other nominations.

When the FlipTop and Sunugan rap battle leagues came about in 2010, Abra was one of the first battle emcees to compete and gradually make a name for himself. After a couple of intense rap battles, Abra has been considered as one of the heavyweights in Filipino rap battling. His current battle records are as follows:

FlipTop Record: 1-3 / Sunugan Record: 1-0

Using his compelling lyrical style coupled with witty antics, he is able to impress viewers and emcees alike; and has YouTube videos that have amassed millions of views. It did not take long until he was able to perform on live television, radio shows and various events across the country.

With the powerhouse production team, FlipMusic, and different Hip-Hop heads alongside this young emcee, who knows what is in store for Philippine Hip-Hop in the years to come. Abra will be releasing his solo tracks soon, plus more projects with LDP, and possibly a solo album by the end of the year.

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Rap Battle Videos
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ABRA vs ZAITO
September 25, 2010 @ Las Piñas City
www.youtube.com/watch?v=l4OwcE3-dBc

ABRA vs HARLEM
July 17, 2010 @ Quezon City
www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1VJZulfzUE

ABRA vs NOTHINGELSE
May 15, 2010 @ Pasig City
www.youtube.com/watch?v=mG9m-4IQ1cU

ABRA vs BATAS
February 6, 2010 @ Makati City
www.youtube.com/watch?v=IyH87QWShus

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Music Videos
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HERE TO OWN IT by LDP
Directed by Dominic Nuesa / Turbulence Productions
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fyo4MhRlf7A (Trailer)
Full-length music video is now airing on Myx!
To vote, text MYX VOTE HERE TO OWN IT & send to 2366

3 YEARS IN THE MAKING by LDP
Directed by Rafael Palencia / U.P. Film Institute Workshop
www.youtube.com/watch?v=397cluZ5R4Y

SULIRANIN by LDP
Directed by Paolo Belmonte / Bigfoot Studios, Cebu
www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mkb8ePHKoX4

naadict na ko sa fliptop mula sa battle nila ni batas,ni nothingelse,ni harlem at ni zaito..Even yung sunugan rap battle nalaman ko din;)..

di lang yun...nalaman ko din na member pala xa ng isang rap band na "

LYRICALLY DERAGED POETS".

.nakilala ko sina rjay ty 

at alex omiunu.

ang research ako about thier band....then i noticed na nakapagrelease na pala sila ng album and they called it "the .Project".Ive already heard thier songs like
SIMPLE,
SULIRANIN,
THEY CANT,
TAKING BAcK THE CITY
AND
GOD FORGIVE ME..then i noticed na may music video sila ng
  THREE YEARS IN THE MAKING
AND
SULIRANIN..
after  that i just saw myself browsing,researching and knowing more about them
then i decided to get a copy of thier album and latest shirt. .
and because of RJAY TY...i got this:)
the COOL.KIND AND GENTLE "RJAY TY"

 ALEX...HAND WRITTEN

 the "LDP"

 the moment i saw this...i just whisper "abra";;;

 with my LDP SHIRT "I <3 IT"

hindi lang yon...nagkaroon din ako 

ldpfamily or should i sat it"LDPSIS"

first ive become an admin of a page of ldp

"we called it "ldp world"

 my family

"my sisters"
"the chic"

"my little amor"

my"babycam"

 

"the future rapper"

 
"siz mabel"

 

yeah....because of them " THIS IS ME NOW".

they are the reason why i'm still smiling;)

im still hoping that someday "i will post a picture here in my blog WITH THEM.

WITH MY LDP SISTERS

AND THE VETERAN LDP.......

till my next entry

chio:)